October 11, 2017
Yesterday I put up a facecrack post that said,
"Every day I see posts by people hurting in one way or another. It always makes me wish I could make all the hurt go away."
I see so much hurt so much of the time. It seems to be everywhere...and it's a bummer.
I mean, you name it...break-ups, severe health issues, major pet sicknesses, and sadly...suicides (too many), and so much more. U hear about this stuff, and see it around me...and It, legit, really bothers me. I can't get past it knowing the things so many people are going through. I just wish I could make it all go away.
Even though I know it's not fair to myself to be that way, especially 'causea how much of my own shit I gotta deal with, but I can't help it. I don't like seeing people hurt. It drives me half insane...or at least that's how it feels. I also don't feel good if I'm not trying to do something about the hurt. That really bothers me as well. A lot.
Even if I know I can't do very much, I still wanna do somethin'. I know pebbles will fill a bucket because little things do add up, so anything is worth a try. (Shit maaan...look what Andrea and Paige have done with soda cans! I've really learned a lot from that amazing family.)
I'm not afraid to dream past impossible and go for it, or do the tiniest thing. The littlest thing at the right time for the right person could mean the world. The power of a simple warm smile for someone who really could use it in the moment is astounding.
I love to challenge myself to try to catch a glimpse of my potential. I still feel like I have never gotten there yet, regardless of some of the shit I've pulled off. Sometimes I get there! Sometimes I fall hard on my face! No matter what, I'll keep givin' 'er a shot whenever I can...I don't really know how to be any different.
That's what my swim was about for myself next summer. I just wanted to challenge myself, and have fun doing it. I'm not under any kind of illusion of doubt about what a 35km swim in one shot will do to my brokedown body. It's gonna tear me to shreds, but I'm gonna sure go for it, and have during the entire journey...injuries and all.
When I first thought it up and mentioned it, a pattern of people asking me what I was doing it for had developed. I said I was doing it for fun, but they were meaning if I was gonna do it for some kinda cause of some shit. I honestly had not thought about that at all. The idea of using it for something hadn't even occurred to me.
A few people in who had mentioned it to me started to get me to wonderin'..."maybe I should try to use it somehow." Once some friends had planted the seed, and I fertilized it with the way I drive myself nuts wanting people to not hurt, I soon came up with an idea to try to do some good.
I've tried to help local individuals, or groups and organizations from afar, but this time I wanna do something for my community, and I wanna do it in a real inclusive way. This is what I have my eye on.
I wanna take suggestions from people for what matters to them in the Nelson/West Kootenay community. Examples...
-The Family Place
-The Transition House for Women
-The Food Cupboard
-The Soup Kitchen
-Build a Community Garden
-Bike Trail upkeep
-Creating a Chapter for Big Brothers and Sisters
-Something to do with the Fentanyl crisis
-Suicide help programs
There's so many things out there that in the realm of promoting healing, happiness, or a healthy lifestyle that could use some help in our community. So I wanna hear from as many in our community as possible about the place that speaks to them that needs some help.
I'll compile a list of every suggestion, and then at the start of June I will take the top five suggestions and put it to a community vote. Whatever of those five gets the most votes, that's gonna be the thing I I'm gonna use my 35km swim for. I'll figure out some kind of fundraising angle for it, that's not very hard, but the most important thing is that I want our community to decide where the effort should go.
I've seen firsthand the way this community can come together for something good, and I have been very overwhelmed by it. We're lucky to have so many good, kind, and caring people.
My community means a lot to me. Couple that with my desire to dispel hurt in others, and I really wanna give this a shot. If I'm lucky I'll hopefully be able to talk some of you into getting behind me on this, but if not, I'm still goin' for it because I wouldn't be me if I didn't try.
I just want to soothe some of the hurting out there, and this is the only way I really know how to do it this time.
Stuff Writin' About Kinda Guy
I am a simple guy who likes to dream of the impossible and go after it. I have found fun in writing about my journey as well as other things that inspire me too.